Sunday, September 19, 2010

Decisions, decisions

This is me. Cracks and all.
Do you ever feel like things are just out of place? Your father is on the other side of the world and doesn't like nor want in his life the person you are? Your mother wishes you were never born, and won't let you leave for university without financially cutting you off completely? You're at a crossroads and you want to jump the bridge. But you don't. Why? Because there's the future. Okay this is now. This is life now, but it doesn't have to be that way in a while. Control will be in your hands. The only problem is with freedom, comes great amounts of responsibility. Financial responsibilities being the biggest of issues. It's a tough world. and to start at literally zero....the math just doesn't work out in my head. Would you rather be on the streets? Or living as the most miserable being you could ever be? Would you rather live? Or die? So many unanswered questions. So much is left to be uncovered in time passing. Time passing is the hardest thing to allow, mostly because there is absolutely no way of fast forwarding, knowing the result before hand, or changing your actions once you've done something. Drugs only numb a person from reality for a short time, and slowly kill you. Cigarettes? The same shit, slower process. Booze... Liver failure anyone? So I guess the only way to work something out is to A) let time pass, as much as it may burden you. and B) deal with it. straight forward. eyes open...

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